I was diagnosed initially with teenage depression and psychosis officially in 2016, specifically as schizoaffective (cyclic schizophrenia) but I already had diagnoses like bipolarity and bourderline, I always had outbreaks, but initially, my first psychotic outbreak considered advanced to the point of significant cognitive loss, was when I was invited to the psychiatric hospital in Berlin.
In my family, on both sides I have kinship with people with psychosis and other diseases, I also had a neglected childhood and use of alcohol and drugs precocious.
My diagnoses varied in schizoaffective disorder, borderline and bipolarity, and the side effects of the remedies were convulsions, more intense panic than usual, memory loss, electricity and parkinsonism.
This work began during this outbreak and when I actually started a treatment, which I still consider questionable as much as madness, but as always, my only and best way of verbalizing what happened was through art, as I continue in treatment, still having sudden outbreaks, it will continue until I am healed.
Internas is a poetry blog, reposted in the medium and has poetry written since 2008/2010. Diary of a psychotic are publications from my point of view on situations that I went through and are texts written from 2016.